Hello Monday!

We had a great weekend!  We spent the majority of it outside and it was just what I needed!  Fresh air and sunshine are the best.

On Friday evening after work we met some friends at the beach for snacks, cocktails and sunset.  It was a really pretty sunset – I think it had something to do with the Saharan dust (another 2020 surprise!)  It was nice to socialize but still feel safe because we were outdoors and not sitting too close together.

Beach Friday

Saturday morning I was up and out early. Our friends invited us on their boat and I wanted to squeeze in a quick 2 mile run before we left.

So grateful for friends with a boat.  Boat days are the best!  Again we had beautiful weather and no rain – which is rare this time of year!  The sun was very strong and I burned my back and chest a bit even though I reapplied SO MANY TIMES!

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We stayed out to watch sunset and it was great!  I felt so relaxed after a day on the water.  We are planning on buying a boat in 2021 or 2022 and this just got me even more excited for it!  After the boat we got Taco Bell on the way home and then crashed.

Sunday was a pretty low key day.  I did some stuff around the house – like laundry and cleaning.  I also finished a book and started a new puzzle.  The only time I left the house was for dinner.  We ended the weekend with some delicious Sushi!61507427830__CF3B8DB6-CBFC-4B45-A30D-D5245AB548DE

The first sushi place we went to was take out only.  In our state cases have started rising again and some restaurants and businesses are closing again or limiting hours.  We shall see how this plays out in the future.  Hopefully it ends soon!

Hope you all had a great weekend too!

Monday Thoughts

Today has been a weird day!  Usually I love Mondays and jump out of bed to get started – but not today.  I am trying to be patient with myself and not push or force myself to be productive.  Luckily today is a very flexible work day and I can do this.  I have been listening to a lot of Abraham Hicks lately, especially around the topic of productivity and feeling worthy.  I am trying to fix my thinking that I have to be productive at all times.  I struggle with this because I beat myself up if I am lazy.  HELP!  Does anyone else struggle with this?  If you just do whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, how will you ever get things accomplished?  I know when I am able to surrender and go with the flow things happen faster and easier, but getting into that mindset is where I struggle.  It has to do with proving myself and not thinking I am enough or good enough the way I am.  All my life I have pushed myself to be better – so it is hard to accept myself.

My fiance is much better at relaxing and feeling worthy.  I watch him and am sometimes envious!  But I am learning from him.  You are enough just as you are – he tells me that all the time.  I just need to remember it more often.

I know I am rambling but just wanted to share these thoughts.  If anyone has any tips or ideas I’m all ears!

Feeling Blah

The world is crazy right now.  Covid-19 pandemic, Riots, Protests…Its NUTS!  I am feeling a lot of tension in the air and everything feels very heavy.  It feels like the country is divided and everyone is choosing sides.  People are very easily angered.  When Covid first got serious I thought it was something that would unite us as a country and world.  The terrorist attacks on September 11, 2001 were horrific but I felt like our country pulled together then and became stronger.  That is not the case today.  The protests and riots regarding race in our country are another huge dividing situation.  The election is in 5 months and I fear that will only make things worse.

My fiance and I have been bickering and arguing.  Is it because everything is so crazy right now?  Or is there a bigger problem?  We will be talking soon and hopefully clearing up a few things.  I need to be open with my thoughts and feelings.  Its something I am working on.  I can say that I am mad but its hard for me to say I’m hurt or scared.  I have been very hard on him recently, being rude to him instead of addressing things properly.  I know this hurts him and the last thing I want to do is hurt him – he is the kindest soul.

I hope you are having a better day than I am!  I am going to head out for a long walk and turn my attitude around!

I’ll Be Happy When…

Do you ever feel like you will be happy when…this or that happens and then that thing happens and you have another milestone you have to reach.  For years I have done this and I am trying to break the cycle.  I am very fortunate that my new Love is willing to discuss this habit and other thinking patterns that I need to work on.  In college I thought I would be happy when I graduated and got a job.  When I graduated and began my business I thought I would be happy when I was making $50K per year.  When I was earning $50K per year I thought I would be happy once I get married.  You get the picture.

I know enough about the Law of Attraction to know that you have to be happy where you are.  I also know that outside circumstances like money or jobs or marriages won’t make you happy unless you already are happy.  However, I have been struggling with this lately.  My new love is so laid back and live in the moment and relaxed that it sometimes helps to calm me and other times it gets me so worked up.  I know that we will get married and spend our lives together but I worry that his laid back attitude won’t get our goals achieved.  I want to clarify that he is not lazy – just goes at his own pace.  I know it is on me to keep myself happy and to keep calm but it doesn’t always work that way.  I will freak out thinking that everything needs to get done and that we have to be productive at all times in order to achieve our goals and be happy.  I have a hard time relaxing and just being without guilt.

Any suggestions?