Today has been a weird day!  Usually I love Mondays and jump out of bed to get started – but not today.  I am trying to be patient with myself and not push or force myself to be productive.  Luckily today is a very flexible work day and I can do this.  I have been listening to a lot of Abraham Hicks lately, especially around the topic of productivity and feeling worthy.  I am trying to fix my thinking that I have to be productive at all times.  I struggle with this because I beat myself up if I am lazy.  HELP!  Does anyone else struggle with this?  If you just do whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, how will you ever get things accomplished?  I know when I am able to surrender and go with the flow things happen faster and easier, but getting into that mindset is where I struggle.  It has to do with proving myself and not thinking I am enough or good enough the way I am.  All my life I have pushed myself to be better – so it is hard to accept myself.

My fiance is much better at relaxing and feeling worthy.  I watch him and am sometimes envious!  But I am learning from him.  You are enough just as you are – he tells me that all the time.  I just need to remember it more often.

I know I am rambling but just wanted to share these thoughts.  If anyone has any tips or ideas I’m all ears!