Well I made it 9 days without drinking and then drank. It wasn’t even fun. I’m not sure why I did it. I wasn’t craving it. I thought it would be a nice treat on a Saturday night. Drink wine, watch Netflix, eat chocolate and just be comfy. But it didn’t really work out that way. I had one glass and felt kind of queasy. Maybe that should have been my sign to stop drinking but I didn’t. I ended up drinking about 3 glasses of wine. I felt fuzzy and not in complete control and I didn’t like it. In the last few weeks I have come to enjoy the feeling of being in control. I don’t regret it or feel guilty. I was in my own home and safe and not drunk in public making a fool of myself. I didn’t wake up with a hangover or a huge bar receipt.
But I did learn something, the idea of wine to relax is just an idea. I think I would have been more relaxed last night had I not drank.
So today is Day 1 again…however there is no hangover, shame, regret, guilt or embarrassment. I am going to view last night as a learning experience.