A few weeks ago I posted about giving up alcohol.  That lasted 5 days.  I think/thought I am smart and strong enough to be able to control myself and not let it get out of hand.  I live alone and work alone and often get invited to bars to socialize after work or on weekends.  I know that I don’t need to drink.  I know its possible.  I never over do the booze when I am home.  Last night I had one glass of wine and it was no big deal not to have more.  Why does it change at a bar?  Is it the atmosphere?  This is something I am working on figuring out for myself.

I have plans for Friday and Saturday night this week that don’t have to include alcohol. Friday night I am going to the movies and I am sure a few will meet up for drinks before and after the movie but I can pass on the booze.  And if I drink anything before a movie I will more than likely fall asleep anyway!  On Saturday night I am going to a rooftop yoga class with a DJ.  It sounds like fun and non alcohol related!  I am going to start broadening my horizons and looking for new activities that aren’t completely focused around alcohol.

I still think of alcohol as a reward.  How do I break that connection?  Yesterday I had a 12 hour work day and thought I “deserved” a glass of wine when I got home.  I also think of food as a reward too.  I will work on breaking that connection but the brain and ingrained thinking patterns are so tough thing to change!!!