A few weeks ago I posted about giving up alcohol. That lasted 5 days. I think/thought I am smart and strong enough to be able to control myself and not let it get out of hand. I live alone and work alone and often get invited to bars to socialize after work or on weekends. I know that I don’t need to drink. I know its possible. I never over do the booze when I am home. Last night I had one glass of wine and it was no big deal not to have more. Why does it change at a bar? Is it the atmosphere? This is something I am working on figuring out for myself.
I have plans for Friday and Saturday night this week that don’t have to include alcohol. Friday night I am going to the movies and I am sure a few will meet up for drinks before and after the movie but I can pass on the booze. And if I drink anything before a movie I will more than likely fall asleep anyway! On Saturday night I am going to a rooftop yoga class with a DJ. It sounds like fun and non alcohol related! I am going to start broadening my horizons and looking for new activities that aren’t completely focused around alcohol.
I still think of alcohol as a reward. How do I break that connection? Yesterday I had a 12 hour work day and thought I “deserved” a glass of wine when I got home. I also think of food as a reward too. I will work on breaking that connection but the brain and ingrained thinking patterns are so tough thing to change!!!
