Its Sunday night. I am hungover. And I am lonely. I miss being in a relationship. I am sitting on the couch, watching Greys Anatomy and just finished my second bowl of ice cream. I am a total cliche. I almost feel like the “cat lady”
Normally when I feel lonely I text a friend to go out for drinks but today is Day 1 of no drinking for me for some time. I want to learn to feel loneliness without needing alcohol to numb myself. I also don’t want to end up with any random person so the loneliness feeling goes away. I have being hanging out with someone for the last couple of months. I know he isn’t the right person but its nice to have someone around. He has feelings for me and I know its wrong to hang with him when I don’t feel the same way. Its a strange relationship/friendship. We snuggle together but don’t have sex. We meet up but as friends and then as the drinks start flowing we get more and more comfortable and intimate. I know its fueled by alcohol and loneliness. Time to stop that! Its misleading to him and not getting me closer to a normal, healthy, new relationship. I have made a list of things to do when I am bored or lonely and want to drink:
- Yoga
- Book Store
- Watch Sunset
- Go to Open Houses
- Tennis – Find somewhere to take lessons
- Library
- Movies
- Paddleboard
- Bowling
- Read
- Work Out
- Go to the Beach
Staying entertained is going to be helpful in this sobriety adventure!!