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I did it again.  Blacked out from alcohol.  How many times have I promised myself that I would never do that again?  I am so disappointed in myself.  I am making bad decisions and eventually something really bad will happen to me.  I may get a DUI, or end up going home with someone I […]

Wimped Out

Last night I was supposed to have my second Tinder date.  But I bailed.  I thought I would be excited but I was stressing about it.  We were planning to go grab drinks and watch the sunset.  It sounded nice:( How am I supposed to find a new relationship if I won’t try dating?  Its […]


A few weeks ago I posted about giving up alcohol.  That lasted 5 days.  I think/thought I am smart and strong enough to be able to control myself and not let it get out of hand.  I live alone and work alone and often get invited to bars to socialize after work or on weekends.  […]


Its Sunday night.  I am hungover. And I am lonely.  I miss being in a relationship.  I am sitting on the couch, watching Greys Anatomy and just finished my second bowl of ice cream.  I am a total cliche.  I almost feel like the “cat lady” Normally when I feel lonely I text a friend […]

Day 1

Alcohol plays too big of a part in my life so I have decided to stop drinking for awhile.  Nothing major or awful has happened but I see danger in the future and feel like now is the time to make a change.  Alcoholism runs in my family.  So today is Day 1 of my […]


My last long term relationship ended in August.  I have dated a bit since then but looking back I think it was more for companionship than a serious relationship.  My last relationship was from 2006 to 2017 and so much has changed since then!  There is Match, Bumble, Tinder, Plenty of Fish and on and […]

Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is a tough day for me.  My Mom has made some decisions in the last decade that has severed our relationship.  I have been very good at blocking out all thoughts of her because it is painful.  However all the Mothers Day ads remind me of what i am missing.  I think this […]


Hey hey!!  Finally went back to the gym today after taking Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off because I wasn’t feeling too great.  Stomach bug and complete exhaustion.  But I was able to have a few glasses of wine last night so I figured it was time to get my ass back to the gym!  I […]

Five for Friday

I love Friday!  Even though I have my own business and can make my own hours and often work weekends I still love the feel of Friday.  Its like the last day of school before summer…okay maybe not that exciting but close.  I am excited to see a friend tomorrow that I met at my […]

Home Sick

I am sick.  I think I am sick of life.  I feel like I am in a rut.  I need something to be excited about.  I just feel blah.  I started this blog today because it was something that excited me. I love the Abraham Hicks quote, “If you’re not excited about it, it’s not […]